Well since I don’t know where to start ill start by what I think it’s a marriage …

I think it’s more than an event, or a process I think it’s a union when a relation go to another level. Where a relationship is now connected by a special bond, one that’s not easy to be broken, because on the first place it shouldn’t be broken. Its a state were there nothing more to hide , to hold back , you are now one with that person , you and your partner share now the same soul , the same destiny , everything that you do together is more intense, it’s a whole new feeling more powerful more meaningful. Its…its just something that cant be explain …shouldn’t either, is something that you should feel, Experience.

I’ve recently learn that there are things that should be experience after that event, after that fusion with the one you truly love. Because it mean a lot more , it’s a lot more intense , much more important …I don’t fully understand it yet, I’m new stupid and slow at things like this. But I’m beginning to, and I’m learning the importance of some things… I was afraid to know, to understand because …I didn’t wanted to wait…because I’m hasty, stupid…and scare…of time probably.

Now that I’m beginning to understand thing, see clearly. I see the importance of some action, some experience that should probably take place after that certain union…I mean I want to have to experience that…before my union because well I didn’t thought about that point of view like I’m doing now…I still do, just much less, now that I get the importance of it, the feeling and the difference of doing something with someone and with someone your fuse with…I would like to have those experience after my union, after I’m finally one with the girl I love, with Ashley, if everything goes like it is.

I just feel like I need to let this out, my words and some of my feelings…since I cant really talk about them.